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How it's been...

2006-02-18T09:58:49Z

Lets just say Ive been gone awhile.

busy, career, boys, haha or should we say...boy.

Recap on my life. Im happy, still single, but content.

The past five months has had its ups and downs, but thats all over now. I realized how life can sting you hardcore but put you back on your feet and that sometimes no matter how much of a player someone was they can be "tamed".

The people who know me very well, know that i think like a guy, well i used to...but now..... i suddenly think like a girl, very bothering actually. The insecurities and paranoia are out! I was the type that wouldnt care about time and just really understand, i still am understanding, but...u know how girls are sometimes paranoid that they are being cheated on....(specially if the guy has a certain historical pattern of doing so). I know i should'nt be...He says I shouldnt be. And i guess i should just trust...let me rephrase that, I do trust. Hes spilled everything, the past and all the girls, even the recent boo boos. and.... the best part was he was "willing to erase all that....knowing that he would be reserving himself for me..." not in my words. yes, yes...words our words....but you can often see past these...unless, hes a very good actor.....which he is. haha

Lets keep that short...

How was my valentines....

At 2am the night before, someone woke me up...with a dozen white roses at my gate...thank you, its not the first time you have surprised me.

DATE CHECKLIST:

Feb 14th 1986-2005 = SINGLE
but was either alone at home, refused guys to go on a date, family or friends' valentines day massacre parties listening to bitter songs about love.

February 14, 2006 = Not Dateless. Dinner for two. Still single. But very happy.
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Well, another set of flowers were suppose to come from a certain someone in the states, a surprise...but it never got to me, coz of technical difficulties, but thanks ur sweet..knowing that 20 million miles away, i was the only girl u "sent" flowers to in the Philippines.

About the career part:

I got a handler for showbiz.

and signed up with UPSTYLE agency,for TVCs and print ads.

In two weeks, i gotta show up in studio 23 in a bikini for 2nd screening of Wazzup.( so im about to go to they gym again)

Guys, I need prayers, Thanks to God who is my number one manager. My family who finances all the outfits, parlor stuff, gas money. My friends for the unending support, Chino for the encouragement and care. Thanks, I love u all!

I hope il be updating more often...

stars have always had a special place in my heart....

2005-11-06T07:26:08Z

I was at the beach with my girls today.Jods and Guia. Yes, dad decided to buy a beach right next to Ayala's Anvaya cove. He says its a good investment. I thought the place was hopeless..but after his sweat, time and moola....Voila! its gorgeous. Its not finished yet..hes building a resort..and hes doing a great job. So if youre intrested to go, you can tell me....u get a discount!

Its 30 mins. away from subic, which makes it 3 hours away from manila! the trip was well worth it....*pics in my multiply* http://kissingbandit.multiply.com

We star-gazed, roasted mallows by the fire....paddled in an inflated raft..that place had a sandbar at the middle of the sea...it was amazing.

Star facts:

- stars are mirrors of the past. Since stars are made up of hot gasses and are officially dead! the light that we see at night are particles after it's supernova explotion that happened millions of years ago. The only reason why we see the light from the explotion now is because, no matter how fast light travels in space, we are milions of lightyears away. So what we see... happened way way way back! Coolness!
- we saw like falling stars.....and a plane that looked like a star that exploded.
- i want to be a "STAR!" haha

hallmark! tsss!

2005-11-02T15:00:53Z

HALLMARK INVENTS NEW HOLIDAYS AND OCCASIONS SIMPLY JUST TO PROFIT! haha

they prove to be useful once in awhile...

i was browsing through bunny's hallmark collection and found this.....

I never get tired of saying, "I LOVE YOU" or hearing you say those words to me...The words may stay the same, but the tone of voice, time of day, and changing situations in our lives give them a thousand different meanings. Sometimes those words are spoken in a rush of passion, when words are hardly needed at all. Sometimes they are whispered reassuringly and can become a defense to the outside world, abosst in self-confidence or a peace flag to end a lover's quarrel.

"I LOVE YOU" means both "IM IN LOVE WITH YOU" and "I CARE ABOUT YOU MORE THAN ANYONE ELSE IN THE WORLD."

How could I ever get tired of hearing or saying the most important words in the world?

Not only today, but for the rest of my life, "I LOVE YOU"

Just wanted to share it to people who are in love.

I cant help it if im melodramatic.

2005-10-05T02:36:44Z

Me? melodramatic....that is an understatement.

I dont know why...but I have just been the laziest person on earth..its not that I dont have time to update, but I just dont know what to say....

For once, Mica Pineda has NOTHING to say?!!

well...im still contemplating on what position to apply for in JMA.
I sure miss them.

Hell week has just been too overloaded------ that is the point of HELL WEEK, the teachers from the dark side.....make you go through hell just to pass..its like a marathon where in you have no option.....its not a matter of sink or swim....

its sink.
Its sink.
Its sink.

"Uy, chamba, pasado ako?!?" ---something like this...happens to everyone.

Keeping my fingers crossed about my grades.

I miss bunny..so so so much...............

Well, regarding my life... Im happy..wanna know why...

1. "*****"
2. Im doing trumpet's little mermaid

Sad, because...

1. Im not as close to God.....gotta fix my vertical relationship.....

candy doesnt have to have a point...

2005-08-24T04:04:51Z

Hey guys..i havent updated for like a month..been super busy..anyway, hmmmm......... its adhoc this sat and I cant wait...please support my event

UP Junior Marketing Association
presents
DANCE!

a fusion of diff. musical genres....hip hop, rnb, world, latin, house
feat. DJ Phat Bone and Pinikpikan

plus 2 hours 11-1am free-flowing Jack Daniels, Mike's Hard Lemonade and Artic Vodka

200 pesos entrance..bring 5 friends get 1 is for free!

August 27, 2005 MDC, MAnila DJ Club at The fort!

gates open at 9pm.

first day firsts

2005-06-07T01:21:12Z

Haha...what a wuss?! Im waiting for National Bookstore to open so I can buy my notebooks..im so excited! Wheee! haha. Its officially the first day of school when the profs dont show up. Chuck Oreta and I are classmates..coolness! Well I still have to pre-rog for either Pan Pil 17 or 19...and PE (Arnis) or Scrabble- incase im too tamad to do Physical stuff! Im thinking twice about CWTS.

LAST FRIDAY...was very fulfilling. Thank you Lord. It was upon Your stage that we have achieved Sucess. TRUMPETS TEEN THEATER....finally, after years and years of waiting. Waiting upon God is so much worth it. PENDRAGON has changed our lives in a fashion that is totally beyond comprehension....working with a great director, having friends for keeps, different actors working as a team..to achieve a FANTABULOUS show! Congratulations guys. That was so far the best summers ive had in theater...and Im looking forward to another one....maybe this time all-year-round. Thanks so much. Visit me in UP anytime..il make libre ISAW!:)

THANKS to the people who watched: Ynez, Jamie M., Dencio, Michelle, Bunz, Kay, AC, Kevin A., Angelo (thanks for the flowers), My Family---plus extended family, Playshop Students, MT-G (aya--thanks for the flowers, les--there is so much to thank you for, rina, BA, cel, Bocx, Len, Dino)..and the list goes on..... THANK YOU SO MUCH!

BACK TO SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

supercalifragilisticexpialidocius...

2005-05-31T18:43:13Z

JMA people: IS CLOSE-UP (Unilever) a competitor of Johnson and Johnson?

grr...havent gone to the gym in like a month...

show starts in 2 daYS....PENDRAGON june 3, 3PM AND 8PM, SM Megamall, Cinema 11...PLEASE WATCH!!!!!!!!!!! Story of King Arthur...directed by Jaime del Mundo for Trumpets.

THE SHOW

2005-05-23T05:02:24Z

GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It would mean so so so much...if u watched. So far, its a project im really really excited about. Im playing Guinevere. Its about the Legend of King Arthur..before the round table was formed. Only two shows....JUNE 3 (Friday), 3pm and 8pm, Cinema 11 Megamall. Tickets are at 250. Im selling...txt me 09154045832.

Directed by Jaime del Mundo

THANKS FOR ALL THE PRAYERS!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-05-23T04:23:45Z

Guys thanks for all who visited me in the hospital and prayed for my recovery. Im so much better guys!:)

THANKS:
Bunny and Pauline------------------ I LOVE YOU BUMBOP! Thanks for the straws!
Midnight Society-----JC,Gerald,Jayzie,Jay,Surot, Leslie (talagang midnight kayo dumating ah)----and to the people who werent there, its ok i understand
Guia--------i cant believe i know him, and u like hiM!

for the people who tried to visit thanks parin:
Benkie, Michelle and Jodie

People who wished for my recovery:
Kris R., Lee-anne, Ynez, Kuya Jamie, Inaki, Chevy, Tito Jaime, Jason Castillo, Tita Noodles,

Most of all thanks God for making me well, Mom and Dad..for paying for the bill!

Im sooo happy

2005-05-13T18:44:49Z

Im happy and thankful to God for everything that has been happening in my life.

Recap of my week in bullet form:
* REHEARSALS EVERYDAY
* Monday was the shoot for 23 hours......without sleep...7am till 6am the next day.
*Tuesday...slept at 7am woke up at 4pm went straight to rehearsals. Jay and Surot came over.
*Wednesday was Erics despedida at Alabang got home at around 4am...im gonna miss him..tearara! (Happy Birthday Eth)
*Thursday i crashed Cy's party..haha...stayed for like an hour..but i learned how to spin
*Friday...Behrouz and Snow Ice at Metro Walk (SUROT THANKS A BUNCH! haha mahal na kita....age is ONLY a number?! just kidding!) Bunz is here shes sleeping over..yeay! I felt like going out to dance tonight.....but im just so drained from rehearsals. Im so thankful to God for this. (I got a text from STAGES that 18th will be the print ad pictorials...)

HONEST ANSWER. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT GETTING A CRUSH ON SOMEONE 2 and a half YEARS YOUNGER THAN YOU?

I love the food icon..haha

2005-05-13T03:32:47Z

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Semi-charmed kind of life...

2005-05-02T18:46:28Z

Crush ko na talaga siya. I like him for being him. Not in a superficial way. I cant explain it. I just do. but he doesnt know...Crush ko siya for more than a year, ASA PA AKO!

I never see him...(try once or twice a sem)
I only hear from him when hes online...sad
but he texted me during my bday...and we were texting last night (hindi ako makatiis tinext ko)
I hope he watches my play.

Labo nga... When im about to end the conversation he starts a new one. Even if all my replies are just "haha" or "haha,ofcourse" .........i wonder what he thinks.

Hes not perfect.
No vices.
Super Smart.
Talented.
Cute in a different way.
Sporty.

Hay......................................................I was SUPPOSE TO SEE HIM! Were suppose to play badminton...

He already asked me "haha,when and where?"

Binalik ko yung question sa kanya.... (KATANGAHAN KO)

SABI NIYA: i usually play in moro and i dont know when il be free.

AKO: Ah ok...

SABI NIYA: haha, busy lives. haha, feeling. Anyways, tulugan na! hehe, goodnight!

AKO: Ok, yeah nga. Weekends nga lang ako free. Txt me nalang when you can play. Tulog? Early ah...Nyt:)

*crosses fingers* I hope he texts me AGAIN...asa pa ako!

my last year as a teen...

2005-04-29T18:19:57Z

SUPPOSEDLY FOR APRIL 27.

I just turned 19....12 months from now it will be the big two zero. hay..God has blessed me with so much...and I just have two wishes...

1. Closer relationship with God
2. ...and a booming career.

This was the first year that I celebrated my birthday with Trumpets people (straight after rehearsals) instead of my family. My folks were at Pampanga. tearara!

26 recap..

was in CPK with Pendragon cast along with Tito Jaime...then we transferred to Max Brenner..due to my craving for fondue...and sucao! It was like pig out day...a few minutes before 12 midnight..i was in tears..realizing that i am never gonna write 18 on any form that asks for my age. I felt old. I felt like I was growing up too fast. I wasnt sad..just couldnt explain it...then the Max B. staff gave me a cake and Hagen Daaz ice cream for free, cause they heard me crying about my birthday. Awww, i love them for making me feel special!

---my free dessert from Max Brenner.
Thanks to everyone who greeted me:
Leeanne Tobias, Gelo Wong, Corrine Elum, Daniel Du, Christian Lingan, Michelle Tajonera, Eric Mercado, Sam Concepcion, Guia Abad, Chuck Oreta, Pauline Yao, Uzzi, Leng, Anna Hernandez, Ate Marnie, Wanda, Red Concepcion, Miko Noel, Joe and Jodie, Kay Coo, Pamparelli, Mariel Ramirez, Celine Suarez, Bella Samarista, Athena, April, Pat Oreta, Kuya Jiggy, Rafa Canga, Ethan Lee, Jiro Cervantes, Mark Encarnacion, Sofia Mathay, Mj, Dee Gotauco, John Hermeno.

Gotta love the midnight society. Noodles, JC, Andy, Gerald, Red. plus the extended members: Chevy, Jamie, Inaki, Alex.

and ofcourse...Bunny..thanks for the surprise sweetie...19 pieces of Ferrero that she made into a boquet..

Today's real update...
we got the minus one for Pendragon..it was so hard to adjust...hay nako...we need more money! I dont wanna shell out for the costumes.

Tito Jamie del Mundo is such a great actor and director. Hail! i swear.. he moved me to tears...sobrang takot ko...with just two lines...Hugot talaga men! IT IS AN HONOR TO BE WORKING WITH HIM. I cannot wait till i block my scenes.

Just came from Jack's Loft...with Mayen and the Midnight Soc. when we started talking about life's past and mistakes.... guess who walks in the restaurant...The biggest mistake ever.

Kewl..im rachel!

2005-04-21T01:16:12Z

You scored as Rachel. Popular and stylish you're Rachel. You can be a little vain at times but your heart is in the right place.

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Breath some life into me...

2005-04-21T00:43:51Z

I feel so drained...i dont want to declare it, but ,my nose is stuffy again *achoo! I havent even fully recovered and stopped my medication and here I am again sneezing.

Its the first day of RIOT today...hope things turn out okay...

well had the usual dinner with Chevy, Red, and JC after rehearsals. We all just love to rant! Thats what keeps the conversation alive... I cant believe it. We learned all the songs in a week. polished in two, then blocking starts next week. If were this drained during music rehearsals, what more when blocking and choreography comes in.

I havent had the chance to go clubbing...my parents are still paranoid about the emergency room thing, but I seriously thought i was gonna die. I might go to Moony this weekend, just have to find a way not to pay 500. haha

I cant wait for ADHOC to meet..we have such a FUN team!:) Go ADHOC!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wheeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bunz is in Bora without me...shes not having so much fun daw...its fun but not super (according to her)oh well. I couldnt go...rehearsals are the chains that keep my feet on the ground.

Im turning 19!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?????????????????????????????????? after that...20..then 21, 22, 23, 24.................i feel old. i dont want to grow old, old.... i love being 18.

melt me away till only You remain...

2005-04-19T05:00:47Z

I was brought to tears during my quiet time. God is just moving in my life through so many ways. He has been so good, and I know that I dont deserve it.

This is such a killer song. I cannot get over it. I was crying and crying and crying...Im so inlove with Jesus.

TO THE ENDS OF THE EARTH
(Hillsongs)

Love Unfailing...
Overtaking my Heart...
You Take Me In...
Finding Peace Again...
Fear is Lost in all You Are...

And I would give the world to tell your story...
Cause I know that you called me..
I know that youve called me...

I've loist myself fro God within your promise...
And I won't hide it...i won't hide it...

Jesus, I believe in You
and I would go...
To the ends of the earth...
To the ends of the earth...
for You... Alone are the son of God
and all the world will see...
That You are God
That You are God...

(End)

Rememeber your creator in the days of your youth....

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Anyway, got the lead role for the play ....Im playing Guinevere!:)

Trumpets presents
PENDRAGON
directed by Jaime del Mundo
June 3
SM Megamall --- Cinema 10
3PM and 8PM

Emergency room...

2005-04-12T03:42:09Z

Not a drop, never ever evr ever!

(3 AM) I just got back from the emergency room..after going to the Aer reunion..i got sick...

Really huge blotches all over my body--- i looked like a COW!?, couldnt breath...my heart was like super kaduper fast...

It was like i had red maps all over my body...

took 2 prednisones for it to subside....

then the doctors turned to drastic measures...two I.V. benadryl shots on my left arm.... (imagine HITCH)

I felt so so so numb!

Then i started puking....plus nosebleed..

Dont ask what caused it. Just figure it out. NOT DRUGS.

Bora awaits...

2005-04-09T04:45:46Z

Well….latest news..latest news…

I cannot stop listening to Hed Kandi, especially Bonnie Bailey and Late Night Alumni! Who has the Smirnoff cd..can i borrow? just have to rip it..all the stores dont have it anymore...

I missed my Bora trip (April 5-11) because 3 doctors plus my mom, did not allow me to leave, because of health conditions. Hopefully I get a hotel refund….

I missed the JMA planning sem for the same reason…GO ADHOC! GO SPR!

Im still going to Bora on the 20th though, that’s 20-25 with Bunz, AC, Aye, Meriel, Sofia…and we will be seeing Ther, Jiro and Averia on that same island..kewl!:)

I came from Greenhills yesterday, got 3 things for myself. What bothered me the most was---they were ALL PINK! (2 pink mini skirts and 1 roxy sando). Then the day before that I went to Chocolate (Shangri-La) and got myself a pair of Pearl Pink Havaianas! I mean, green is the new pink….ok, haha that sounded wrong…well..pink was last year’s color of the year, but I can’t get over it…I still think it’s a Mean Girls hangover…

Im gonna be going to Pampanga tonight with Bunny,just an overnight thing…

Im kinda worried about my weight….(when was I never worried!?) Im leaving for Bora..real soon…like 12 days to be exact. The past few days..I have been FORCED (take note: FORCED) to eat real food…like rice, and tapa…and all the not so healthy carbs…it’s for me to get well and I needed it for the medicines (15 different tablets a day). 1 of the 3 doctors, wanted to confine me..and I was like NO WAY MAN!
.. so I was not allowed to go to the gym for almost 2 weeks already, because of the bronchospasms. Two weeks prior to the last two weeks…I would go to Gold’s everyday and run an hour of cardio, do weights and 250 crunches..without fail!! But since I stopped... (im not sure, but I think..Im back to the old me…) it kinda cancels out! 2 weeks of an intensive work out program, and 2 weeks of slacking off…equals ZERO!

So I have come up with my own schedule…for the next 12 days:
• 2 days SLIM fast
• 3 days 3 day-diet
• then Southbeach or cabbage soup diet for the next 7 days

a total of 12 days…am I killing myself!? Ooohhh..plus GYM everyday and an hour of belly dancing!

I went to Waicoco yesterday…(customize-your-own-bikini)..message me if you’re interested. Its cheap lang like 1500-1800.

Bunny and I were suppose to have a matching bikini made, with studs forming our names…but after seeing Ketty’s (the owner) Bora pictures…we both got the same exact Bikini..in GOLD! It looked so so so so nice…specially with her tan! It cost us 1800 each..not bad…I just hope it looks nice on us too!

Im losing my favorite bikini….turquoise and brown!

After WAICOCO we went to Church…it feels so nice to be closer to GOD.
Simply satisfying.

Rushed to Nothing but Water..bought myself white linen pants 999, the last one on the rack..SPLURGE SPLURGE SPLURGE!!!!!!! I have to stop spending!

Well atleast im not selfish… I got my lolo 2 polo shirts , Ate Mary underwear for her birthday 7 pairs---she picked it out. Then Tito Rox Amaretto Almond Cake , Mom Oatmeal Cookies …I spent for other people..and I feel good about blessing others for no special reason or ocassion!

PLAYSHOP SUMMER STOCK starts on Monday………….wheeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!! We started a week later since the class was kulang daw. It’s the advanced class…where in people have to audition to get in! Im gonna be with Red, Leah, Inaki and Chevy…I don’t know the other people…under Tito Jaime’s class….SO COOL! I wonder what play were doing.

WHATEVER HAPPENS………..DO NOT WATCH CLOSER! (Natalie Portman, Jude Law, Julia Roberts movie) IT IS A WASTE OF MONEY AND TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I haven’t been getting that old weekend kick…(the urge to go out on any gmik) I’d rather bum around at home compared to my usual night outs…maybe, its because Im still not well.

Anyone going to BORA 20-25?! I’ll see you there!:)

Karla..arent you going?:)

THEATRE PEOPLE: Does anyone have the BYE BYE BIRDIE SCRIPT..i need it immediately, I am willing to pay! Just need to Xerox it..very very important!

Id rather be...

2005-03-16T05:37:30Z

Which Disney Princess are you?

I get to be a boring push-over, poor princess????!!!!!!!!!!! who talks to rats!? I refuse to accept that! I wanna be ARIEL! shes half-fish but atleast she sings better than CINDY! and Eric is a way cutter prince compared to Cindy's nameless Prince! or is his name Charming??

Dear journal, i missed you!

2005-03-16T05:25:23Z

My schedule has been crazy, and I have been totally lazy to update my journal. Well, it would be mentally impossible to write everything that has happened since my last update.

Summary:
*ADHOC JC encounter, two thumbs up guys! Jose Cuervo??? or Jake C.??
*Bunny's Banana Walnut Muffins (no butter, no sugar) my new addiction!
*Got the Hed Kandi Winter Mix 2004
*Dewberry taping
*Just finished doing VAGINA MONOLOGUES, and got my first "real"( in terms of cash not gift checks) talent fee! Thank you Lord!
*Leaving for bora april 5-11 with Pam, Kay and yaya mary... hopefully OJEN too! Povedans are taking over bora (Angel, Bianx, Ers, Car, Jamie, Dencio, Tin, Ynez, Maics, Kay, Pam and I) did i miss anyone??
* School is out! Im going to 2 classes nalang pareho pang walang finals TF 4-530 and F 1-4

(thanks to the JMAers who watched--> Melo, Maio, Fats, JA, Rocky, Ayi, Aya, Cesca and Ardo, Anna S. and Dindo, Nex, Dappy, Mike R. for watching!:) Hope you enjoyed)

"HALINGHING NG MGA PUKI!" haha total laugh trip!

Well...i have promised to go to the gym everyday and so far i have been going and burning atleast 450 calories a day on the treadmill and elliptical. No sweets, no beef and pork. Only carbs i can have: oatmeal, wheat bread and wheat cereal. Hope it pays off! even if i have lost my bet against Igue. I have 21 days left to excercise!

Silent, Bitter, Cold and Waiting!

2005-02-15T06:32:41Z

HELLO!!? "Why look for Mr. right when you can have Mr. right now" i dont even have a nr. right now!

Its that time of the month again where everyone else is all mushy and on cloud 9. Well not for me. Been single since February 14 1986. Single Awarness day equals Valentines. I hate Valentines...it causes so much traffic.

The day before Valentines, Bunz and i watched PHANTOM OF THE OPERA....Pre-valentine date... IT WAS BREATH-TAKING, im speechless!

Lost my phone sometime this week....some mean person stole it. heres my new globe number, please text me yours: 0915-4045832

I missed the ADHOC launch...:(

Its the UP fair today, still thinking...gym or fair? gym or fair?

Im craving for the mouth watering HALFMOON bibingka crepe.....but i cant have some...Southbeach..."A moment on your hips, forever on your lips"

Got a new phone: 7200....I love it! I have to love it.....i paid for part of it.
Im getting my Ipod mini sometime this month...i told my parents it was a good investment...wink,wink!:)

I drove past this newly constructed house by our street...the entire house looked like a giant bathroom, instead of having a normal concrete wall....the whole house was made of tiles! bathroom tiles.....hay, people nowadays!

OJEN SWEETIE HAPPY BIRTHDAY!:) When are we gonna pretend to be Aktibistas to stalk ATOM ARAULLO?!?! haha

I am determined to DIET! i swear... gotta win that Bora bet against Melo and Igue.

lying down waiting to be washed off the shore...

2005-02-08T17:34:45Z

Havent been as enthusiastic in updating my journal... stress induced i guess.

Well Saturday turned out well... i felt loved. Alot of people were there...aww POVEDANS GALORE! (Ojen, Kay, Pam, Ers, Cel, Grace, Lee, Bunz, Mich, AC,Ynez, Maics, Marga) super thankies! PAULINE YAO I SOOOOO LOVE YOU FOR BEING THERE! Iba na toh...tuloy-tuloy na.....plus the biggest thanks to AEUS REYES GUITAR GURU!
Thanks to everyone who showed up....Kevin, Tonio, Jopo, Bauti, Pao and to Jodie, love you sweetie!:)

Person #1: Well someone i did not wanna see, lets just say, not ready to see at the same time...showed up...He was invited to a party in metro walk too...i did NOT invite him!

Person #2: but I pretty much forgot about it when i saw "crush" ****, it was sooo weird, but kilig at the same time, i really didnt expect to bump into him for the THIRD SATURDAY....i mean seeing him in ponti was normal. Bunny totally flipped when she found out i saw him....coz i was telling her pa na we should take a break from the weekend bar hoping, and resume after a month or so....haha it was sheer coinkidink (coincidence)
im HAPPY i saw him though....sana sa SATURDAY ulit! haha

Person #3: I saw someone else...i see him often...but one thing i realized that night...I miss the friendship, i miss the closeness, i miss how things used to be...its sad to wish for things that seem impossible...Its never gonna be the same...and a bigger part of me has learned to accept that

JMA WEEK was a blast....and culminating night was big time ah!:) haha VODKA TWISTEE!

MAKAMAKAN tom. GO YELLOW TEAM!:)

P.S. Director Toni Mabesa just texted me to audition for VAGINA MONOLOGUES, the catch its in TAGALOG called USAPANG PUKE!...im flattered though,hello..he is one of the most popular and famous theater directors...I will try to do this! I cant imagine myself,saying that it malutong Tagalog words....but oh well!:)

Up for school...

2005-02-03T19:31:48Z

Its one of those sleepless nights again..i have been working on random school stuff since yesterday morning...I was at home the WHOLE DAY yesterday (referring to Feb 2),its currently Feb 4 3am. Well i'll keep it short and simple.

-im pissed cause i missed Candice's event....:( i wanted to attend,but i couldnt coz of theatre..sorry sweetie! im sure it was a success.
-SCAVENGER HUNT was the best! woah...it was mind boggling....the car thing na parang Mrt was so cool! 4 hours wohoo!
* Jolly was on the haunted street
* Hubaran spree!
* ER three points: body shots with Noel, itlog sa ulo, coke at hangin ang tinira.
* my disaster clown face
* Gabby's bulag buttercup!
* Gio and Brens kiss.....hindi naman big deal yun?!
* Kiel couldnt fit in my shirt
* Ja powder rangers!
* Myles with wet SPLASH shampooed hair
* AND THE FROG!? WHO COULD EVER FORGET MY BESTFRIEND THE FROG! i swear....that was
traumatizing..i can still feel the cold blooded freak with my hands despite the plastic.
I think i killed it, when i panicked and threw it!

the scavhunt made me break my diet... i had a quarter pounder, minus the top part bread....and milo!
I can live on Chocolate milk! sinful!

I am currently craving for cellos dulce de leche and cheese, putong ube cheese and Bibingkacrepe that everyone if raving about...but i cant have any of them! becasue....of my diet....SEXY CHEF delivers all my meals the day before its suppose to be eaten. Its ok...but its pretty good for diet food. Im happy people told me i lost weight.

Just finished YMing with kevin..havent talked to him for ages....i learned alot form our conversation....thanks kev!

kevinatendido (12:38:57 AM): hmmm.. aanu ba uli type mo?
mica_doodledoo (12:39:29 AM): im not a superficial person..i just want someone who is real...
kevinatendido (12:39:50 AM): define real.
mica_doodledoo (12:42:04 AM): someones whos "there"....parang hindi mo kailangang hanapin...no commitment, no label..pero alam mong someone special..someone who will take care of you, and someone you can take care of.....
mica_doodledoo (12:42:54 AM): i hate to admit it..but i am very old fashioned...gusto ko the whole package when it comes to these things...the surprises, the flowers....minus the cheeziness...
mica_doodledoo (12:43:03 AM): the feeling of being on cloud 9!
mica_doodledoo (12:43:48 AM):
kevinatendido (12:44:16 AM): hmm..
kevinatendido (12:44:49 AM): so you want someone conventional?
mica_doodledoo (12:45:44 AM): in what sense conventional...
kevinatendido (12:46:14 AM): you know.. with the flowers annd aall..
kevinatendido (12:46:31 AM): ok forget about it.. I think I get na your type.
mica_doodledoo (12:46:50 AM): ayoko ng cheezy hopeless romantic ayt..
kevinatendido (12:47:08 AM): what you mean by that?
mica_doodledoo (12:47:34 AM): i just miss the feeling na having someone there...na walng tali, walang label....siguro i just want someone who listens....feeling ko nga guy bestfriend lang hinahanap ko eh! haha
kevinatendido (12:50:03 AM): ah, gets.
kevinatendido (12:50:32 AM): laam mu, somehow you maade me realize that's exactly how ive always searched for a girl.
mica_doodledoo (12:50:42 AM): what do you mean??
kevinatendido (12:51:07 AM): Yung pwede na kayong dalawa paag kayo lang but you still have the freedom from commitment
kevinatendido (12:51:21 AM): like you said, no strings..
mica_doodledoo (12:52:13 AM): MY POINT EXACTLY....someone told me.....bitay daw yung hinahanap ko..kasi no huy would agree to that.....
mica_doodledoo (12:52:17 AM): guy*
mica_doodledoo (12:52:36 AM): but thats the PERFECT set-up for me....
mica_doodledoo (12:53:05 AM): and i thought i was weird..no one ever agreed with me on that....
kevinatendido (12:53:44 AM): hmm.. in a way it seems mahirap nga makahanap ng guy mo
kevinatendido (12:53:56 AM): but you're not weird..
mica_doodledoo (12:54:28 AM): thanks.....
kevinatendido (12:54:34 AM): somehow you want a guy only when you need him.. but you dont want him to be always there
mica_doodledoo (12:54:49 AM): no naman..ayoko lang ng strings....
mica_doodledoo (12:54:59 AM): im not ready for that...
mica_doodledoo (12:55:22 AM): ang pangit naman kasi kung when i need him lang....i can survive without a guy

I REALIZED I WASNT WEIRD, it wasnt a bitay set-up like someone said, IM NORMAL BECAUSE SOMEONE AGREES WITH ME! THANKS KEV I OWE YOU ONE!:)we go way way way back...and thanks for everything! just remember what i told you ayt?:)

Im planning to audition for Vagina Monologues, Toni Mabesas directing it....at first they wanted to translate it to Filipino and call it "Usapang puke!" what was up with that??! Buti nalang it will remain in English.

Cant wait for Metro Walk, Pauline is playing her kahon for me, and Aeus guitar naman!...emergency band put up in an hour...without any practice yet..oh Lord..please help us!:)

....long overdue for a miracle...

2005-01-30T08:04:27Z

The sun god has spoken and he has answered my plea....I didnt get a tan! wohooo!!!!!!!!! im so traumatized from my boracay tan...its still here....coz of that overly effective hawaiian tropic tanning amplifier...ive had my tan since december 2003! yes i had tan lines the whole year round, which sucked coz it was debut season! haha...im on my way to school i'll continue this update later (CONTINUED)

I havent updated for like forever....well alot has happened over the past two weeks..i have been driven into slavery by my professors....theatre is a hard profession to the point that my mom asked me if wanted to transfer to UP's blue neighbor. I was very tempted to take the offer but...i love my school. Its the state university....and i have JMA to keep me sane.

For two weekends...i have been in ponticello.

First week- Me, Sofia, Bunny, Chinky, Michelle, AC, Ethan,Jiro, Pat T.,Mark E., JM, Tommy,....and someone that i met just that night..who caught my eye but...off limits..hes taken.

Second week- Bunny (duh! were a package deal), AC, Kacci and her boy, Eth and Rox, Jodie, Ling, Kring,Chinx, Me...and saw **** again. Paul W. and his friends dropped by last night. It was like after ten million years i get to see Nicole, Sophie and Khalil...blast from the past!

My "new" drink! COCO LYCHEE with CHERRY ON TOP...its the best! im want it right now! i had two last night...totally broke off my southbeach regimen. I fell off the wagon twice DAY 5 and DAY 6,but im gonna get started again today.

last last week i was in batangas with my girlfriends. My bestfriend turned 18

The friday before that was barbie party (all girls and bbqs) haha! she was surprised by us......in joe's house.

This week is the start of JMA week!:) whoa..its the first time im gonna experience JMA week...whoopdiedoo!:)

I have a geography exam on the 8th! 8 chapters with 50 pages each to study. havent started

Bunny is still here...she just woke up!:)

..........sun please dont bronze me up this time!

2005-01-17T22:40:46Z